I did not post yesterday, and dearly regret it. I found that consistency in a few things. I do not being regular in the time that you poop, not in the time you go to bed, not in the way you kick dogs in the street, but in the things that consistently make you happy. Yesterday, i did not post, a thing that forces me to take store of the days better moments and rethink their less meritorious ones. Yesterday, i had to endure what should have been an exceptional second field day. This time we went to a very large lumber yard. provided with hard hats, safety googles and ear plugs, we certainly alleviated the stress of talking to eachother. I would say i took nearly 200 pictures, which reminds me, i have pictures on my computer, so i will be posting pictures on somewhat consistent basis. However, i have to complain. I can't help it. I posted early about genuine interest in a subject being trumped by utter exhaustion; well, I could barely talk on this trip, unable to feel any excitement except for the opportunity to take a single picture that i will post. The only moment during the entire day that i felt myself relax was when Carli asked me "estas tan feliz para ser volviendo" or something like that, and i was able to speak, even if only in a rushed and fleeting interaction, with some gusto.
Today was a day of recovery from my frantic behavior in the evening. most of it was good. walking down the street toward the other scholar house, carrying pizza dough, toppings and wine, i got a very welcome sensation, one that was very familiar to the one i had floating in seneca lake on this +90 degree day: feeling like a child but completely void of nostalgia, just momentarily worry free. It was that there is no reason to feel that any engagement is pressing. I have in found that books used to be this source of hope, knowing that at any moment obligations could end and that i would always have something to look forward to.
Anyways all is good. I feel back to normal.
and damn keurig, i hate those machines
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